by and large this experience is building good things in me. perseverence, faith, compassion, and of course patience. though taking on an action to build it in yourself is different than you having no choice to accept it naturally ;) its hard to take oneself out of the equation and say "i am powerless. i choose to remain faithful AND cheerful" ive got the faithful part down well enough, the cheerful is slipping though.
yesterday i HAD IT and i took down the birth tub. isnt that sort of funny? it would have been up for an entire month otherwise and i knew that fact would just bother me to no end. i swear my kitchen is so large now it echos! so to "celebrate" i scrubbed the floor on my hands and knees. whether it was to be clean (because you know cleanliness is next to godliness i hear...) or constructive frustration the point is ive got a large, clean kitchen.