i love, i do not love

i love when my brother calls me to say that my youtube video made him cry and we talk for a long time about nothing (but it always means something), thinking about the possibility of the future & trying to figure it all out, i love that i have a husband who is always on my side and we work or try to work on everything as a team instead of in opposition to each other, we have the same goals and loves and silliness and i appreciate that. i love friends confessing that they use a dictionary to play scrabble online sometimes and i in turn confessing the same and laughing about it. i really love my friends more and more every day. i wish i could put each and every one of them under my pillow or in my pocket so i could talk to them all day. (text messaging would be dangerous for me, im glad i dont have a cellphone, lest i text them all day and night)


i do not love when i am one noodle short for making lasagna, people smoking around my kids, rummaging through our junk drawer to find matches just to light one measly incense stick or when people i love dont regularly update their blogs to satisfying my craving for a peek in their world. i really do not love throwing on the lights and flooding your eyes with piercing illumination when you just want to use the restroom and then limp back to bed but need to find something.