Wednesday, May 07, 2008

i am ET

you know the movie ET? of course you do, it would be unhuman to be unaware of such a flick. anyways, in it there is a sequence wherein elliot gets sick and it conversely makes ET sick too. that is how i feel a lot of my life. in a good way i feed off of people's joy and energy but when they are sad and broken, i start to dissolve a little. i am feeling overwhelmed, trapped, sort of just out of it for the last week. maybe it's david working 12-14 hour days and being alone with two constantly fighting children, in fact i know some of it is that but there are more things too. again i slip into the role of ET and absorb people's pain and anxiety. i consider this a gift to be so sympathetic but it hurts sometimes too to carry the weight of my own bags and others too. the pain of the darkness is made up for in the joy of the light though.

3 comments:

Hannah said...

I know exactly what you mean. I've never thought of myself in light of ET, but have you read The Secret Life of Bees? I completely identify with one of the characters named May. (http://living-juicy.blogspot.com/2007/11/last-night.html)
It is a gift though, to have empathy, and not many people are blessed with it. I'm sorry you are feeling drained though. I'm sending loving thoughts your way.

jenny mae. said...

i have and i love that book! yes i heavily identified with her "ailment" too

Anonymous said...

Check out The Highly Sensitive Person by Elaine Aron. I think you will see yourself in its pages. It's brilliant that you can see this as one of your gifts, and this book helps reframe it for those who don't as well as gives you "coping" tips because we live in a non-HSP world.

-- a fellow Highly Sensitive Person