Wednesday, May 07, 2008
i am ET
you know the movie ET? of course you do, it would be unhuman to be unaware of such a flick. anyways, in it there is a sequence wherein elliot gets sick and it conversely makes ET sick too. that is how i feel a lot of my life. in a good way i feed off of people's joy and energy but when they are sad and broken, i start to dissolve a little. i am feeling overwhelmed, trapped, sort of just out of it for the last week. maybe it's david working 12-14 hour days and being alone with two constantly fighting children, in fact i know some of it is that but there are more things too. again i slip into the role of ET and absorb people's pain and anxiety. i consider this a gift to be so sympathetic but it hurts sometimes too to carry the weight of my own bags and others too. the pain of the darkness is made up for in the joy of the light though.