Thursday, May 01, 2008

this entry is disjointed

some people make me want to spill my guts. conversely now that i think of it, some people make me want to inhale my guts, hoard them in a pile inside myself to hide my deepest parts. stuff the not-as-acceptable parts away and put on the happy face i detest. friendships are funny like that. 99% of the time putting on an honest face will win you favor in my eyes, there is nothing i respect more than a person just being Real, warts and all as my dear grandma used to say.

today i reflected on the longevity of certain people in my life. i have two people in my life that i have known and come to dearly love since i was a wee kid. did i, at the time of getting on such and such numbered bus in elementary school imagine that such and such friend and i would be friends some 20 years later? of course not, children don't process that way. but now in my adulthood i can count on one a happy, healthy, blessed hand the number of friendships that i imagine going the distance with. in high school i had 3 girl best friends, we were "the fearsome foursome". we have since grown apart like the pieces of Mesopotamia, a slow continental drift that is just part of what happens when a proximity friendship is denied the proximity. one friend that i never thought would leave though, for reasons unknown to me, did only to resurface a few days ago with a monosyllabic "hi" on one of those social networking websites. i have so much to say but who knows if he is even interested in talking, since the reasons for his disappearance all those years ago were unknown to me. heck for all i know i greatly offended him somehow! (this is me jumping to conclusions, but really, what other choice do i have when your best friend just does a 180 and peaces you out for 5 years?) time reveals all things.

speaking of adolescence (sort of) i found out that go ask alice is fake. that book takes me back to middle school!

i spent part of this morning seething over a blog post, which i will not give the poster the satisfaction of linking, wherein they put out some very hateful, ignorant words about birthing at home. instead i will link you to a really great blog post called "fear, judgment, and focus" which talks a lot about women supporting one another (and why they often don't) regarding birth choices.

there is a squirrel about 1 foot away from my window right now climbing the lilac bush outside. i dont think ive ever been this close to a squirrel. he's hanging upside down.

things to do today:
: garden - plant second blueberry bush & strawberries, combat/attempt to control slugs with eggshells & beer trap, weed, possibly invest in some liquid seaweed
: get cloth diapers
: mail them to my sister in law maria
: get over to wholly craft! and buy gift for friend's baby shower this weekend.
: do not eat more brownies

16 comments:

rayray said...

i know the post youre talking about. it made mereally mad. i read thru all comments on her page and rixas, and decided i'd better say nothing. :p

jenny mae. said...

same! silence is golden

Hannah said...

Speaking of sending people presents... A couple nights ago I couldn't fall asleep because my mind was racing with things I want/need to do. One of them was send you this great UTI tea from a store here (radianceherbs.com). If you're interested, let me know, I'd be happy to send you some. I have crazy recurring UTIs and no health insurance, so this tea is a big kidney-saver. :)

jenny mae. said...

COOL! what's in it?

Susanna said...

I recently saw "The Business of Being Born" and was just astounded at how peaceful a home birth can be. Do you have any websites or books you can recommend on this topic? THanks!

Amber said...

Hey so what kind of cloth diapers do you use?? (sorry, of all the wonderful things that I could comment on, I am afriad, it is the diapers...sorry) I have been using fuzzi bunz for a while (not that long) and I LOVE cloth diapering...however, do they suddenly peak and not absorb anymore? I don't even know if you use this brand but for some reason I think I remember seeing a few on your kids in photos. Another friend that I have said she used to use fuzzi binz but they leaked with every diaper so she changed to thirsties...I don't know what to do!!!!!! (oh the woes of an american mom...which cloth diapers shall I purchase??) All of Solomons diapers are leaking with out fail and I feel a little discouraged... any suggestions?

Anonymous said...

we love bum genius as well as the g-diaper system... I use cloth inserts in them during the day and the flushable/compostable inserts during long car trips, at night, etc... both have worked really well for us!!

jenny mae. said...

oh susanna i could talk a very long time about homebirth! favorite books:

birthing from within
ina may's guide to a better birth
spiritual midwifery
journey into motherhood (which is a compilation of all natural birth stories)
anything on the bradley birth technique

websites -
check out gentlebirth.org

jenny mae. said...

oh and anonymous we use FBs and love them!

Susanna said...

Thanks! I'll look into those soon.

Amber said...

So Jenny, you FB's dont leak??? All of a sudden this week, I am changing his bedding after every nap and almost every hour he pee's through!! Am I doing something wrong??? They were fabulous at first and I just thought maybe then just run thin after a few months...I don't know...I did 3 liners last night and he didn't pee through haha...so MAYBE he just has to have massive buns haha :)

jenny mae. said...

nope they dont leak! could they need stripping? that sounds like it to me

Amber said...

Stripping??? Do tell...you can email me too if its too much of a process to explain :) Yah...I'm glad they might be an end to the leakage (he is a pee maniac though...he has been known to pee through many a disposable diapers too) But I am glad there is hope :) Whenever you can...let me know...

jenny mae. said...

email address?

Hannah said...

Wow! So many comments. :) Jenny, the tea has a mixture of herbs, I forget them all. I know the key ingredient is uva ursi, and I think there's some marshmallow root, corn silk, and horsetail...?? I can find out tomorrow.

jenny mae. said...

hannah i am always looking for new homeopathic remedies! shoot me an email for my address

softletters@gmail.com