the worst is, and of course this has happened very rarely but still! it's happened!, when im getting out of the tub and drying my hair and i turn off the dryer and hear the downstairs ruckus. now im a trusting person, i do not believe that people want to hurt me or want to steal my stuff. the point is that woman needs to just use my mailbox for what it is for and stop trying to give me a heart attack. i startle so easily! i guess i could remedy this by putting a little note on the door? but then my regular mail carrier would think i was nuts because that is what he already does!
my kids spent the night at my parents house last night. david and i hung out on the couch and watched medium which i really like. this morning i slept in until 10! woke up and puttered around the house doing some light cleaning, and i made myself the most scrumptious breakfast, as per nicole's suggestion of 2 scrambled eggs, pepperjack cheese, and salsa in a whole wheat wrap. i hate eggs and eat them solely out of obligation to my health, but these were YUM.
so every year i dub it something. 2007 for example was "the year of trying new things" and try i did! i tried out having a kid at home, new restaurants, new food, new hobbies, stretching myself in new ways, on and on. 2008 was "the year of treating others responsibly" and i think i fared ok with that too. no major blow ups with any person, it really helped me expand my love for people i already love and helped me take people i previously struggled to love and bring them in a little closer to how i want to feel about them. so i usually make this little declaration in january but it's taken me a month to nail down this years personal theme. so, 2009 is "the year of giving up control over others" rather of course the illusion that i ever had control over others. i really think people are all by nature control freaks. over ourselves, over our diet, our jobs, our family, over strangers, over the world. it manifests in so many different ways. but! no longer will i bang my head on the wall when i feel someone is being obtuse. you know, because i am never obtuse and no one ever bangs their head on my behalf. so crushing that illusion that i can control any person other than myself and i see this concurrently resulting in getting more control over myself.
& just bcs i love you guys, here's one of my all time favorite songs