spray bottle & food coloring & snow = GOOD TIMES
outside of my own nature i find my daughter to be the most consistently rebellious force in my world. i mean she is the epitome of curiosity and defiance. yes she is just a wee one year old but seriously. SERIOUSLY that girl! if you give her an inch she will take miles and miles. i am sitting here, should be working, watching david, augustine, and olive ride their bikes in the alley behind our apartment. olive consistently tries to quietly sneak down the alley to the next street while augustine and david and horsing around. good thing she is slow on the trike and the thing squeaks and creaks as all get out. im surprised ive never put a leash on that one! ok not really, i wouldnt do that but still!
im working on being more um forward (?) about my spiritual gifts. not just using them internally as a conversation between God and i but doing outward things. i mean there is a time for self edification and growth but by and large i think the main purpose of gifts is to unify the body of believers. God sure had a sense of humor giving me an outgoing, cheery personality and panic attacks. i am very blessed that the latter has not diminished my joy about enjoying people. anyways so i woke up this morning at like 4 am and instantly felt i had to pray for a certain person and that the Lord was telling me that they were struggling with control issues with food and it was escalating into a full blown eating disorder. immediately i was like "oh no! do not make me talk to this person about this!!" (it was not someone i was incredibly close with, not that it would have been easy to work into a conversation with even the closest of girlfriends!) so during prayer time someone goes up and grabs the microphone and says that they feel someone in the service is struggling with control issues, is dealing with food issues. i started crying, knowing that God was not only speaking to this person through two people, but was now making the conversation i felt i needed to have with this person afterward that much more comfortable for us both. she went forward for prayer and afterward we hugged and got all teary eyed together. it was amazing! i am so so so thankful that i go to a church where people can be just raw and honest about their mess of a life. i mean we are all weird, flawed, quirky, wrong-doing, struggling, unpeaceful people who need help. that help can come in so many ways - friends, family, books, counseling, love but for me and really i do believe for the entire world the answer is Jesus! my church (vineyard - specifically central vineyard) is the only church ive ever felt safe in. safe with friends who like Love me, care about me in ways that i have never been cared for. it is the only church ive ever gone to that i feel really embodies what Jesus is about - community, charity, social justice, freedom, generosity, sharing our lives. it is beyond churches which "come down on you" with a list of rules and social mores that exclude rather than include. dont get me wrong they preach things that challenge you, but it is way more than pointing a finger in somebody's face.
omg people are going to stop reading this blog! i can feel it! im that freaky jesus girl!