And God is able to make all grace abound in you, so that in all things at all times, having all that you need, you will abound in every good work. 2 Corithians 9:8
gesh im so glad God makes the grace and i'm not the one who's supposed to because if i had to make my own, i'd be a black hearted fool no doubt. this is proving a lot harder than i anticipated. if you want to go beyond scratching the surface on the subject of whether or not you are a good person, start praying about people you hate. we all do it, we all need some level of change to happen in us. i'm only on day 2 of this exercise and already im seeing what a black hearted person i can be. my inbox practically beamed at me this morning with this persons name highlighted. under it a prayer of transformation, forgiveness, repentance, and gah LOVE. how can i love this man after what he's done? what breaks the heart of the Lord should break your heart too and boy, i felt that brokenness. but i took that brokenness and instead of turning it into an opportunity to show grace and forgiveness, i shun this guy. when i know i am going to come into contact with him i huddle my kids around me as from a wolf and adopt a look of scorn and a tongue of gossip and slander. i definitely campaign against this guy every opportunity i have. and i am now confessing and repenting of that. i struggle with the idea of accepting this man as a Brother in Christ because i know a certain measure of his failings and i hold onto it very tightly.