Wednesday, March 25, 2009
today's person/people i dont really like but im praying for change is my neighbors. the ones who yell at their kids and parked their car on the lawn while they were moving and i harshly judge them on just about every little thing that i can and scrutinize how different i am from them. of course they woke me up this morning before the sun was up, chatting it up obscenely loud for the hour behind our apartment this morning. i flew to the window and looked out in anger that i was woken up before 6 am by a guy out for a smoke with his buddy but then felt a spiritual "tap tap tap" on my heart reminding me that it was my day to pray over my relationship with the family next door. i am greatly troubled for the little girl that lives next door, i can easily see her as a child of God - but her parents? that is a stretch for my heart. i see the evidence of alcoholism and hear the anger and neglect through our shared walls and i just tighten up thinking about extending a hand of friendship. it's difficult for me to accept the truth - that every person is an object of God's relentless affection, that everyone was created in the image of the Lord, that everyone's mess ups are the same. but. but. hey! that means we are equals! guess what! we are! all have fallen short of the glory of God, end of story. oh but my heart is so tempted to keep some ridiculous list of other people's sins and minimize my own. it's laughable! so today i invite the spirit of redemption to permeate my walls and soak into my heart. reconcile me to my neighbors God!