it's amazing what a good night's sleep will do to clear out your mind. yesterdays pity party hasn't left me entirely but today i'm looking upward and onward. i often wrongly assume that i control anything about my life. really, i don't. the Lord holds the very beat of my heart in his hand along with my dreams and hopes to do with as most edifies the Kingdom. i really believe that and so if i do, why worry about this? or anything else?! i lay this dream down and will pick up another no doubt. there are many opportunities to do what i want to accomplish with a communal garden. exhibit a. this land, which is 4,455 Sq. Ft, is for sale for a measley $500 but the city would lease it to us for $1/yr through the Growing to Green Program. im such a do-er but i can't take on such a role by myself so i'm pretty scared about the idea of jump starting a project like this. but at the same time i feel so strongly that things like this can really draw a community together. where is that instruction manual for my life when i need it darn it!!