Monday, April 27, 2009

getting over myself

it's amazing what a good night's sleep will do to clear out your mind. yesterdays pity party hasn't left me entirely but today i'm looking upward and onward. i often wrongly assume that i control anything about my life. really, i don't. the Lord holds the very beat of my heart in his hand along with my dreams and hopes to do with as most edifies the Kingdom. i really believe that and so if i do, why worry about this? or anything else?! i lay this dream down and will pick up another no doubt. there are many opportunities to do what i want to accomplish with a communal garden. exhibit a. this land, which is 4,455 Sq. Ft, is for sale for a measley $500 but the city would lease it to us for $1/yr through the Growing to Green Program. im such a do-er but i can't take on such a role by myself so i'm pretty scared about the idea of jump starting a project like this. but at the same time i feel so strongly that things like this can really draw a community together. where is that instruction manual for my life when i need it darn it!!

6 comments:

Daniel, Kristin & Ezekiel said...

I'm sorry things didn't work out the way you had hoped. It's dissappointing to have a vision/idea and then have things not work out how you pictured... :(

BUT it is really cool that the space is being used for a garden anyway! Maybe you could talk to the people gardening there and join their endeavors??

I'm glad you're feeling a bit better about it all today, and I'm sorry someone left you a rude comment in your last post. I think they failed to see your heart on the matter.

Your a sweet and open woman, i hope you know how encouraging you are to all your readers out here in blog-land! Thanks for being honest with us :)

jenny mae. said...

oh im sure they're just trolling for conflict, which im not about to engage in.

anyways i am happy that the land is being used, and even happier that it's a garden!

Anonymous said...

The dream hasn't died, it has just moved its location. Everything happens for a reason. Have faith in that.

meridith said...

ditto to what anonymous said! also if you ever run across someone that wants to garden but has no where to do it - my friend who lives in hilliard has land and wants to garden but doesn't know how and would be interested possibly in a set up like you have with the baxters.

Judy said...

hmmm.
I thought that comment was just a friend pulling your leg. Your vision sounds nothing of selfishness. I am glad you can see beyond their comment. God knows your heart and your motive. That is all that matters.

Radiantsun said...

when you find that instruction manual, I'll purchase a copy!