i did something i've never done before last night -- went to a concert alone. my friend amanda gave me two free tickets to see passion pit, which was sold out, at newport and after passing one on to a friend (who already had a group of friends whom i didn't know to go with) i was like "hmm..." i hemmed and hawed and an hour and a half after the doors opened up david was like "JUST GET DRESSED AND GO!" it was fantastic advice. not only did i find free! rockstar parking! but i found a few guys (nick fancher, nate cate, andy malone, and john rueben) from church were already there. yay! i didn't have to stand alone! i must say i haven't had the best relationship with newport. the place is beautiful and nice but well, maybe i've just had bad luck so i don't have positive associations.
- built to spill 2001 - had one of the worst panic attacks of my life during the show, wound up in the ER
- unwritten law ~ 1999 - had a beer poured on my head from the balcony
- mxpx ~1997 - was pretty much sexually assaulted in the crushing crowd (guy had me pinned against the rail and just had a good time under my clothes while i was powerless to move and too young to know what to do)
- mxpx ~1997 - david broke his tooth
but! despite that negative association i have had some of the most amazing concert experiences there. flaming lips 1999 with looper was phenomenal, i mean pretty much i went to a show there a few times a month in high school it felt like. every band i loved, i saw them live at newport. so anyways last night was a fantastic show. the band is new enough that they were energized by the love of the crowd and young and unpretentious. and then of course their music was amazing. i've been wondering if michael angelakos was really that great of a singer or if he had fallen prey to overworking and auto tuning his vocals. being resounding "heck no" after last night. he might be one of the most talented singers i have ever seen live. what is on the album is exactly like his live vocals if you can believe it. highlight of the night was that someone brought what had to have been a trash bag or more full of glo sticks which were continually being tossed around the room like some ethereal rain. downside of the show - someone thrashing their beer around and splashing me, people smoking weed RIGHT UP NEXT TO ME, and a man using a railing and me (a whole buck 20 maybe) while asking me to help him crowd surf. seriously? do you not see my friends here who are all ~6 ft tall?
this was the highlight of my evening (though i cant deny that i really loved hearing little secrets too. i dont care how popular it is!!) if they are coming to a town near you, RUN GET TICKETS
ill start out this next part by prefacing that olive is just fine, however monday afternoon she might or might not have had a seizure. i came into the front room and she was crying and burying her head in the couch cushions. i picked her up and she started screaming so intensely she stopped making sounds. when i leaned her back in my arms to talk to her face to face she tensed up then went limp, stopped crying and just laid there expressionless but breathing deeply as if she were asleep. she then started urinating on me/the couch but showed no awareness of it even though by now i was jostling her and calling out her name. a few seconds later she sat up and asked me to clean her up and that was it. she seemed fine but for a few seconds she was MIA and it freaked me out.
olive had her first doctors appointment this morning with whole kids prediatrics. amy wakeling (a local midwife) recommended them for being low conventional-intervention though completely able bodied to prescribe anything we might need, though i've heard they rarely give out antibiotics to children, etc. we saw dr. sant who was awesome. olive loved her and let her do (most of) her tests. based on what happened she can't take seizure off the table so we are going for an EEG friday which will give us a definitive answer of yes or no. i actually have a lot of peace that things will be taken care of in the way they are supposed to so im not stressed at all oddly. well the only stress i have is "what the heck IS an EEG?" and wondering how olive will react to the procedure of data collection.
my only real stress about all this is that apparently they need her to fall asleep during the test so they can get a reading of her REM sleep pattern or something. i have very little confidence that olive will tolerate falling asleep in a hospital with electrodes strapped to her head but hey, let's all pray/send happy vibes that way cool? i have two great friends who are going to help me out with augustine, one is picking him up from school and the other is going to babysit him for a few hours while the tests are being done at the hospital. love love love my friends!