every night i find myself curling up in bed with a sleeping olive, a bowl of ice cream, and our computer which i stay up late watching gilmore girls on. my friend michelle let me borrow seasons 1-3 and i am in love. i just wrapped season 1 last night. (i really wish luke would have sent loralai the 1000 yellow daisies) now i need to find someway to procure seasons 4 onward, knowing full well that i will plow through seasons 2 & 3 rapidly. i think the show is influencing my eating habits (first week - no food eaten while watching, second week - halloween candy, third week - big bowls of ice cream)
i think im in a funk, the best part of my day is when the kids go to bed and i can get in my warm bed and eat ice cream. i can haz frumpy? i keep seeing people or places or photos and think about all the things i'm NOT doing with my life. don't get me wrong, i like my life. but if im honest it's monotonous and kind of boring. and if im even more honest i know enough about myself to know that i am not one to do monotonous and boring. i mean i'm not one to do over the top jet setting either but i don't know! i feel really bored and uninspired and like something is missing. i dont like looking at other people's lives and musing about how much fun they seem to have compared to me. do. not. like. and even that makes me go batty! because i reject the idea of "the grass is always greener." that is a dangerous and depressing way to live. all of a sudden i feel like i've hit all of life's milestones and i have nothing else to look forward too and that seems really sad. i used to be so full of hope and excitement about life too
(she made that "trick" up all by herself. how cute!)
we got 60 lbs of fujis!
this is olive's "the big kids won't play with me" face
and augustine's "darth vadar does not smile" face