what do you think happens after you die?
i started thinking about this specific niche of science/belief because well, im restless with the idea of a finite consciousness. if i am honest, i want to live forever. not for some vain glory but to see what happens in the universe and with humanity. i believe that there are many projects around the universe similar and completely dissimilar to our planet but find no satisfaction in the limitations put on humans at this point in our evolution. if we don't self destruct or blow up the environment, i think given another 10,000 years we could launch out into the cosmos. i reflect very sadly that i won't be able to realize that vision. i feel i am equally a person of science as a person of faith. i can see an appreciate nature's flow and force in my life but also believe that there is much more to existence than just that. so my answer to the above posed question is heavily influenced by both. i see three options:
1. spiritual consequence.
the ol' heaven and hell thing. in this scenario everyone gets what they deserve and nothing that happened here on earth will hold hopes in our hearts and minds. our body returns to atoms and space dust but our essence goes forward for it's reward or punishment.
i can't hang with this one because both parts of me say this isn't possible. where was my consciousness before i was born? that question keeps me awake thinking. is consciousness simply a biological inevitability? are we part of some simulation (OMG THE MATRIX IS REAL)? is there an intelligent design at work that gave us this consciousness? my science brain tells me that nothing dies, just changes form. therefore oblivion isn't possible. my spiritual heart does believe God made all of this and wouldn't leave us to disintegration.
3. enduring consciousness
this is what i struggle, sinfully, pitifully even, to NOT want - though if im honest it is what i do want. to have a consciousness that can permeate time and space and Know What Happens. david says i am being too hard on myself to call it SINFUL. he enjoys my curiosity and drive to learn. i feel like i am forsaking God by wanting anything but to just sing in a choir of angels. somehow, someway i wish at that moment of descent i'd be met with some other worldly knowledge of the universe, like a large gate being swung open that i didn't know existed.
i'd love to hear anyones thoughts on any of the above mentioned or their own feelings on what happens at the point of death. i've got every sort of person on my list and i'm itching to hear what you think!