i planted olive's placenta in the ground yesterday beneath the lilac bush. it was oddly more emotional than i had anticipated. during the last stage of delivery i had lost a few cups of blood and was pretty woozy so i never had the opportunity of looking at it when it was first out. maggie did and apparently it is a very interesting spectacle (i never really wanted to when i had auggie, but i had planned to go over it with our midwife kathy after olive was born.) so it has been in our deep freezer all these months and was now a condensed cold version of it's former life-filled self. my mom helped me dig the hole but then let me have the rest of the experience to myself. when i took the placenta out of the bag i was shocked at what i held in my hands; it looked exactly like a human heart! (i do not feel this was merely by chance of course) how perfect this little miraculous organ nourished and grew my little (now big(ger)) daughter for so long - faithfully giving itself without expectation of any reciprocation except maintenance. well this was my way of paying it back, by giving it another little life to help grow bigger and stronger. so i dug my hands in the earth, i just didn't feel like wearing gloves. for a task such as this i really wanted to feel the dirt mooshed into every crevasse of my hands. that just felt right.
my plan is to now take a photo of olive and i with the bush every year to document all of our growth.