my heart is aching. breaking. ripping out of me right now. last week an old friend from high school had a baby and today it passed away, born too soon. this is the SECOND baby that has passed away in this manner. i can't stop weeping. i can't calm down. i know God is in control, has a Plan for us all but i do not know how i could go on living. twice. TWICE! my heart has officially sunken through my entire body and is now resting on the floor between my feet
how do i begin to write a card, a note, dial the phone. what in the world could my trembling voice or hand express to this woman. i keep venturing to compose a note and i just sit there and stare blankly and bite my lip and then burst into a heap of tears. i couldn't go on. i could.not.go.on.