slowly but surely i am on the mend. friday i made my brother and sister in law some meals, one of which was a very rich baked potato soup. i ate two bowls of this that day and by nights end my stomach was giving me major signs of being unhappy. maybe the two aren't linked, in fact i don't think they are because no one else who has had any has had any reaction. i spent the entire night in bed as still as i could doing that deep breathing that somehow we are convinced will prevent us from puking. trust me, stillness and breathing won't work unless you were never intended to barf. and gesh i make the weirdest noises while throwing up. there are three things that i find the most embarrassing things in the world to do in front of other people (men especially)
anyways im on the mend after spending about two solid days in bed. this meant missing augustine and olive's first "real" birthday party they were invited to (for jakin) and missing a family trip to see my new niece kylie. i was so so mad to miss both!
1. putting on panty hose
now granted i am a no-frills type of lass so rarely am i presented with a situation where i might wear them but still. i find putting on panty hose in front of anyone wholly humiliating. there's usually wiggling and scrunching and pinching and it's just weird to witness.
2. licking envelopes
i will do just about everything to avoid seeing or being seen doing this. it just seems too sensual or something. and no i do not have a dirty mind. perhaps it was working in an office for many years and seeing people do this so often? the point is it seems like inappropriate mixed company events.
3. throwing up
once upon a time david took me on a fancy date when we were teenagers and i was so nervous that as soon as we got outside i barfed all over the sidewalk. (um i think i had panic attacks before i really wanted to admit this to myself...) i've had two children with my husband present, one of which he was IN THE TUB WITH ME for and still, i would rather do almost anything besides throw up in front of him. natural childbirth in all it's glory, sure. throwing up, nooo.
kylie the baby with all the hairs
olive was obviously very tired. she crept into kylie's room and set herself up for a comfy nap