today i woke up so early and couldn't possibly go back to sleep. so i did what any reasonable adult would do and reached under my bed to my book stash and pulled out the prisoner of azkaban and read until the light of day woke up one child (who came into our bed and hogged my covers), then another (who then hogged covers from said first child), and eventually a very sleepy david. and this is how it goes, how i am able to read 50+ books per year on average.
speaking of david, we got our health reports back from our life insurance physicals. i tore open our separate letters, no doubt to somehow "see who was healthier" or something. whatever. turns out david has high cholesterol (279). i opened it and tears started coming to my eyes. david's grandpa had quite a bout of heart disease that spanned over 40 years and well, i can barely type thinking about david having a heart attack or being sick. he came home and we went over what the internet had to say about heart disease and how to lower your cholesterol levels. i got groceries today and bought heart-healthy specific foods a'plenty - tuna, low sodium whatnots, smart balance canola oil, etc. i don't think ill ever get david to consume tea of any kind nor nuts (besides peanuts) no matter how healthy they might be. another snafu is that i can't consume seafood and being the primary food-maker-and-purchaser i never buy seafood. so i'm going to have to start figuring it out, and often because they recommend heart-healthy fish twice a week. thank God i don't "need" to eat any! (my cholesterol levels were great again.) the point of all of this is that i think it's clear that david and i are genetically different (horray for not marrying you relative!). but in all seriousness we consume a similar diet, david works out 10x more than i do and he is the one who's cholesterol is through the roof and it is just a simple matter of how our bodies deal with what we're given. my pastor jeff always says "garden within the contour of the land" and baby, we are going to restructure his diet and use the land he was given.
still, when i got groceries today i cried every time i picked up the heart-healthy specific version of a product. i can't bear thinking of something awful happening to david. in the check out i stood there and wanted to claw my eyes out with a panic attack. it was so mortifying, not that you're exactly conscience of that at the time. all you feel is RUN! BAD! FREAK OUT! i came home, fell onto the couch and haven't moved since. i'm feeling kind of paralyzed by this news. classic jenny.