no koolaid for me

well this weekend has been a bit of a bust. we did not end up going out and "drinking the koolaid" as planned. for the first time in about 15 years i had a migraine that put me out. like way out. this has been the only time that i have wanted to move olive out from a cosleeping situation. in fact i almost asked david to just take her and make her sleep somewhere else (this happened during the day, not at night. i reasoned she could hack it for a nap) she is rather sick and migraines + baby snores DO NOT GO. i put towels up over the windows, took some excedrin migraine, and frantically called david about 3 times - he was moving things into the new place. for me a migraine starts with spotty vision, sort of like if you looked at a bright light except the lights don't go away. it grows and grows and by the end of phase one i have about 35-45% of my vision left in patches. phase two starts with creepy crawly sensations on my head that give way to shooting pain. phase three, crippling pain. then light and sound sensitivity, nausea, then vomiting, then hands then face go numb before being pulled out of it all with what i can only imagine is the worst hangover feeling of all time. i remember as a kid i thought i was no doubt having either an embolism or stroke (these are my dad's med school facts popping up in my youthful mind no doubt) they still scare me though, especially when i start to feel my hands and face go numb. what is a migraine anyways?

i havnt even moved into the new place yet and i've already planned three parties. one for quasi-easter-thanks-for-helping-us-move-in!, another is a small dinner and scrabble dinner with the fanchers, and then of course the kids birthdays in april.

also im beginning to plan two gardens, what are you planting in yours & when are you planting it?

here is a great article written for the BBC News in the UK. it describes the big changes that obstetrics has undergone in the last 50 years. i think sometimes we can all get really discouraged and angry with how the model is set up right now, how women and children are not at the center, etc. but i think we've come a long way. don't get me wrong, i think we still have a long way to go, but im glad women are conscience of what is happening to them during pregnancy, labor, and delivery. i mean most women of out great grandmothers/grandmothers generations delivered their babies via "removal" with forceps while the mother was under twilight sedation. anyways, interesting article to read one family's history. thanks melissa for the link